What exactly is your ego? Your ego is the reflection of what others thought of you when you were a child. Your ego is also your mental thoughts that try to keep you safe by justifying your actions. It is everything outside of you. The more complicated your external world was as a child the more complex your ego is.
Your ego reflects to you everything that is around you – not you, but all that is around you – all, minus you. You went to school and the teacher reflected to you your thoughts. Your friendships with other children reflected to you your thoughts. Everything you have experienced through out your life was a reflection of everything you have thought of about your self and hidden in your ego.
How do you know what thoughts are within your ego? Examine your life thus far and see what acts of self-sabotage and self-destruction you have created in your life. These acts of self-sabotage and self-destruction are birthed out of feelings of shame, fear, guilt and denial. These feelings feed your ego.
What does your ego need? It needs to be right. What does your ego want? Your ego wants to keep your inner child safe. How will it do it? – By any means necessary. Why does your ego do this? It’s afraid you will discover the illusions that exist outside of you, the very things and people that your ego is addicted to. Your ego separates you from everyone around you. It believes that this is mine and that is yours. It will keep you in a spin and create more and more illusions in an attempt to keep your psyche safe from what it perceives as harmful.
What is really harmful to you? NOTHING AND NO ONE is harmful to you. The illusion is that everything on the earth plane is real. However, the truth is that you are a spirit who has enrolled in a human exchange program here to experience the illusion and learn what is real. What is real? Only one thing – LOVE!
If you could just recognize that the ego impulses that you have – the urge to have sex with someone other than your significant other, to take money that doesn’t belong to you, to lie in order to better your position – are clues to you of your thoughts. These thoughts should be explored and examined. It is within these thoughts that you will discover the complexities of your childhood experiences and what you need to do for yourself in order to heal and transform your life. When you deny or repress your painful childhood experiences is when your ego will convince you to act out its impulses in an effort to make you feel better about you but this is JUST for the moment. DOES YOUR EGO RULE YOUR WORLD?
In order for you to feel good about you and your life in the long term, you will need to muster your strength to see the truth of who you really are which is not your ego. Your ego is your partner. You need to study it like a player on a team so you may know how it behaves during tough and great plays. It needs for you to talk to it, love it, and teach it appropriate healthy boundaries and structure as you would any child.
To see and be the truth of who you really are is about digging deep into you. The process is peeling the layers of the untruth that is all of your thoughts (negative/limiting thoughts) and healing your life to get to the core of you. This will help you to reveal all that is you, which is absolutely omnipresent, divine LOVE! The truth of you is not addicted to the illusions of what is outside of you that gives you only momentary satisfaction. The truth of you lives and breathes at the core of the universe where there are no judgments, shame, guilt, denial, etc. The truth of you is light. The truth of you is infinite. The truth of you is perfect. The truth of you is beautiful.
Why wait? Why delay? The real you is waiting for you behind door #1. Knock, knock – don’t you want to answer that?
You are so deeply and unconditionally loved by the Divine, so love yourself just as much!
Love Yourself! Weekly Assignment
1) Journal about how you have self-sabotaged or self-destructed in the past or now.
2) Make a list of your ego impulses and urges.
3) Meditate, notice and write down your thoughts about yourself when you have self-sabotaged or have impulses.
4) What were or are you trying to achieve? Were you trying to feel better about yourself? Were you trying to get someone else’s attention? Were you afraid of something or someone? Why were afraid?
5) Now write down your truth – who are you really? What do you know about you?
You are so loved, so love yourself just as much!
